Friends as mothers.

I traveled to D.C. to see my most prestigious friend.   You know, that friend who double majored in biology (pre-med) and political science (pre-law). And now, is pretty much famous working as a diplomat for the United States government.....I'm so proud of all the things that she has accomplished, but one of the most outstanding things she has done is raising her little princess, Gwen. Gwen is so cute, sweet, so smart and already has a fun sense of humor. I'm so proud of her parenting! When we were younger it was hard to picture friends as Moms.... They get pregnant....its still not real....The baby is born. And Bam.... Super Mom.... Amazing mom.  (Oh, and her husband, who would have thought.... Just kidding..... He is a wonderful Dad!)

List Shopping only.

I went from visiting Target less than 1 time a year to going there every other day (at least). I love it. It has everything. Its convenient and I discovered the 'End Caps'. These are the 'secret' of target. And man, do they have fun things to buy. Things I like to think of as necessities, but I didn't realize it was a necessity until I found the "End Cap". The prices are mediocre and its not like all items are a dollar or anything. But they are on sale....So when I see these 'necessities' one of two things happen.
           1. I'm having a 'strong day' when I see the items. I  ooooh and awwwe over how much I need them. Make the decision  and think to myself 'Nope, not today'. By the way,  Necessities include: Off candles for the deck, throw pillows, puzzles, lip balm plus sunscreen, lamp shade, some unknown supplement (vitamin of somesort? I think?), eye brow pencil and a Chinese lantern. On the way home I am so disappointed about the cool things I didn't buy. And the next time I'm at Target I B-Line it to the "End Caps" to pick up those items.
          2. I'm having a 'week day'. I pass every 'End Cap' in the store. Again, ooooohing and awwwwing over these great 'necessities'. I talk myself into buying these items.... Because Man I need them and if I don't get them right this second someone else is going to buy them and I'll never have that blender with the cup attached to the top that you remove and drink your blended beverage in.
Other 'Necessities': A world map, paper plates with pink flowers on them (8 plates per package), sidewalk chalk, an Off clip on bug repellent and a microfiber mattress pad.

   Admitting my End Cap addiction is the first step. Next step is stick to list shopping only. I will have an app on my phone with the REAL necessities on it and will, avoid (hopefully), those End caps.

Target, You've got me!

XOXO
-CuriousCourser-

Saturday Night Live....a real story from SPRINT.

   

Job Title: Part time On-call Crisis Therapist

Description: Be available to do psychiatric assessments in the Emergency Room for patients suffering from a possible mental health disorder. 

Examples: suicidal, psychotic, self care failure and/or homicidal. This morning: 5:00am, check phone....5 voicemails. ZERO missed calls.

My thoughts at this time....AH, I must have slept through 5 missed calls!!!!!!! I'm going to lose my second job. I am so unprofessional....this is all my fault.

 I immediately called my Dad and had him call me......at least 8 times......He left a voicemail each time.....and nothing....

Reality. My phone did not ring. Ever. Not one time. I called Sprint first thing in the morning......5:11am. Too early. Customer Service reps not available.

 

9:01am: Customer service rep-Shanique or Lanique or Lakisha?? .....Helpful. At least tried to be. Helped reset my phone saying 'I'll call you back when I see that your settings have changed.' Remember, My phone is not receiving calls. Never heard back.

9:21am: 2nd call. Customer service rep-Angela. Not helpful. I asked to talk with her supervisor. She said "they are with another customer at the moment. They will have to call you back." (I.E. Remember. My phone doesn't work). I offer to hold and she says "Well, go to a SPRINT store and that is the only way that you will be able to get assistance with your phone."

1:16pm: Sprint store. 707 Commons Place, Manhattan, KS 66502...Brandon,face to face, at my local sprint store. I explain that I am on call an I need a reliable carrier...etc....He said "Well, there is a tower down. (Isn't that always the excuse? Where the hell are all these towers?)

Me: Well, can you please help me. I am guaranteed reliable service and obviously this is not reliable.

Him: The tower has been down for over 2 weeks.

Me: Okay, well that is not my problem. My problem is I need a reliable service and the fact that sprint has a 'tower down' is not my problem. Its your problem. Please help fix my phone.

Him: Mam, there is nothing we can do.  10 people have been in here today complaining of the same thing.

Me: Again, Not My problem.  I just want my phone to work its a necessity for my job. Leave store.   

1:30 pm. Call customer service again. talk with Caroline or Carolyn...? She informs me that her two 'Escalation' bosses, Erica and Stephanie are on the phone with other customers. Me, I can wait.

Her: They only take calls by appointment and they will call you (AGAIN, MY PHONE IS NOT RECEIVING PHONE CALLS!!!! That is my problem. NO PHONE CALLS ARE COMING through on MY PHONE!!!! She hangs up on me.

(Lets not forget the Bottomline here: I NEED A RELIABLE PHONE...And SPRINT can not provide this for me. Therefore I need to change providers. I have been with them less than 30 days and I have had unreliable service and bad reception...My termination fee needs to be waved because they aren't holding up their end of the deal.)  

I call back and talked with Dane who transferred me to his "supervisor Joe" who transferred me to his "supervisor" Heather who transferred me to her supervisor "Tamberee" then to Corlis who told me I have not followed the appropriate steps in getting Sprint to retract the early termination fee...

....I must get a diagnostic evaluation done on my cell phone....in Junction City...Though makes note that someone prior wrote on my account that I refused to do that.....That was the first time I had heard that as an option. .I already went to the sprint store in Manhattan.....finally, Ol' Corlis says that the only way I can talk with her 'supervisor' is leave a message and 'the boss', Erica will get back to me within 24-48 hours .  The boss Erica calls back leaves a voicemail for me to call her back (remember. phone does not accept calls).....

sidenote: Okay people...So basically I'm picturing the call center....At one end you have soft spoken lakisha/angela types and on the other end you bring out the 'big dogs' ..... the Corlis and Erica types who lay it down......and act like the presidents of SPRINT!   Erica, in the mean time of 'understanding what I'm going through' had the nerve to try to UPSELL ME A LANDLINE!!!! HAHA. NO!!!!!  

3:00pm- Drive 30 minutes to Junction City  to get a diagnosis on my cell phone. Wait an hour and 1/2....Drum roll please.... Diagnosed with "poor cell phone reception from the tower that is down."

THIS IS A SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE SKIT! When you say "I would like you to transfer me to your supervisor" they call it 'escalation'.....and transfer you to the next meanest person in the place. 

At this point I ask 'the boss' Erica, to transfer me to her boss. Again, "By appointment only and she will call me back within 24-48 hours."  

4:27pm Get a voicemail from Stephanie. Who is claiming to be Erica, 'the boss's' boss...Can't fool me....Little Caroline or Carolyn spilled the beans and I caught you trying to manipulate me, the customer!!!! My early termination fee needs to be removed. You are not providing me reliable service.  

Stephanie and Erica are co-supervisors. 

tbc......   

 

 

What a funny life.

Tonight I had a wonderful night of hanging out with one of the most spiritual, loving, kind and supportive people in my life. We talked Jesus and how he gets us through anything... Just hand it over. Don't fret he'll take care of you.... We enjoyed some good talks, wine, laughs, rain and her amazing outdoor/covered porch. Great evening.... 

I get home... Grab the mail and I have a letter in the mailbox from my new neighbor.... Not Vicki Gunderson (the woman who yelled about my dogs being off leash while i took the trash out) but her daughter to the north of us.... 

Well recently I've developed a green thumb and have been gardening... My girls come out and sunbathe, play, or sit in the shade... Occasionally wondering 10 feet away but not much further... Well the neighbor has dog poop in her front/side yard. We live on a busy street with a very busy sidewalk... But I get the note. I have not deliberately sent them to her yard to use the bathroom... If they have 'used her yard'... Please let me know and ill be more than happy to clean it up!!!! I'm a responsible dog owner... I pick up their poop on walks... And give dirty looks to people who don't... I grab some bags and a flash light to clean up the dog poop. And what do I find.......

What's that you see?????? Dog poop. MY NEIGHBORS DELIBERATELY PUT DOG POOP ON OUR FRONT WALK WAY!!!!!!!! 

Who does that??????? I was willing to go pick it up at midnight with a flashlight in the rain... 

Please don't put it on my front walk way. People are effing CRAZY!!!!! I would NEVER DO THAT!!!!!!!! So much for neighborly!!! 

The War on Weight.

size 00

size 14

Soap box #1556: Why does weight and body type weigh (no pun intended) so much on if you are attractive or not. Where did the perception come from? Not thin means you are less of a person, unhealthy, unattractive, lazy or unworthy??? Who makes these decisions about beauty? I feel like 'Bigger People' are becoming the new target of discrimination. First it was the American Indians, Poor People, Women, African Americans, Homosexuals and now people who are Overweight.

I understand obesity correlates with infertility. But this day and age most anyone can have a baby, adopt a baby, have a sergeant carry your baby, get artificially inseminated,  have your husband's vasectomy reversed, store your eggs for a later date, put sperm and eggs together to make an embryo and then freeze it. .....and many more medical phenomenon's....

Now on to the medical debate about obesity.....There are obvious medical concerns for people who are overweight who's lifestyle consists of fast food, no exercise and a permanent spot on the couch...That is their choice....their right......Then there are the rest of us....who aren't thin.....who don't sit and watch T.V. 24/7, don't eat out,  exercise regularly..... And blessed with a big body.

The story of -The Chart-
I go for my regular exam...  all my lab results are back and 'great'! I'm healthy!!! ...Then as I gather my things.....get ready to leave....It's hanging directly in front of me. slight swaying back and forth from the air conditioner vent... The "Are you OBESE chart?" Yep. 5'4 175lbs......OBESE. Staring me straight in the face. BIG AND BOLD. " You need to lose weight, you are obese which will earn you a shortened life span."

I'm a physically fit 30 year old who runs marathons and 1/2 marathons, exercises 5+ times a week and i'm still considered 'Obese'. OBESE. An obese Marathon runner. Who would have thought?
My doctor, who is wonderful, (Shout out, Dr.Knopp!) referred me to this program through the local hospital to lose weight healthily with a doctor, dietician, psychologist and trainer......Awesome, yes, perfect!!! I just need to call my insurance to make sure its covered. I call.  Nope, my insurance doesn't cover 'weight problems'.   You would think that they would for prevention reasons....less money now but MORE money later.... Thanks Preferred Health Care, I'm going to stop running, eat some cookie dough and a full pizza now. Haha. Just kidding.

I think I'm going to start a movement....Every person matters.

 I matter. You matter.

"Just Love, Not Judge."  

Life is beautiful. It's a miracle and our bodies are amazing regardless of judgement.

(Dove' Body has done an amazing thing by recognizing the beauty of all shapes and sizes)

Tip of the day for on-line daters....I WILL NOT TALK TO YOU WINK AT YOU AND I"LL PROBABLY DELETE YOU.....If your profile says that you only like "SLENDER or ATHLETIC AND TONED."

Lots of men don't even select "ABOUT AVERAGE or CURVY".

Weird.

 

XOXO

-CuriousCursor-

 





 

One of the most wonderful things about 'thinking' I was on the road to marriage was that I would NEVER, EVER, EVER have to on-line date again. I wouldn't have to 'apply' for dates, sell myself, pretend that I'm flawless or be 'winked' at by creepy old men. 

But now, I'm feeling like a date would be fun. Going out for drinks or dinner.....someone to do fun stuff with....light and easy.....but I live in Manhattan, KS. Its virtually impossible to meet a mature man who graduated from college, has a career, ambitious, doesn't spend all his spare time in Aggieville and has a car/drivers license.  I don't feel like I'm that picky. I possess those qualities....shouldn't someone I date, have those qualities too?

We'll see.

 

 

<Mr.CuriousCursor are you out there??>

XOXO
-CuriousCursor- 

"I made.............."



This blog is not about me. Though I was there. One of my friends from work and I went out with some of the Moms of kiddos that go to our school. They are the fun Mom's at school who are involved in everything! They love our school and we love them!!!
They invited us to watch their girls play softball.......and then out for a drink afterwards....We went to the softball game and then to Coco Bolos for the $5 carafes of Sangaria! YUM! We chatted and laughed and caught up on everyone's lives.....My friend.... Leaves her phone face up on the table...not paying much attention... (Side Note: Kelly is a magnificently talented artist. She is always working on something for other people....)
Kelly gets a text and one of the Mom's glances at it and see's that it is from her boyfriend and saw that it said.... "I made...." written on the text...looks a little closer & finished reading the sentence and immediately said "Uh, I didn't mean to read that I, uh,  just glanced and only saw 'I made' and thought how cute it was that your boyfriend makes you things too..... I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
Kelly picks up her phone, reads the text....Turns bright red in the face....And says "Ah man, ....I'm so embarrassed!!!! "
The text read "I made some cum for you." This caused an extreme laugh....I'm actually still laughing about it today......  Poor Kelly was mortified because not only is she out with a couple of girlfriends but the Mom's of students we teach....HAHAHAHA. Priceless. As I dropped her off at home...she said "Well, now if anyone asks what my most embarrassing moment is.... This tops the charts!" Hilarious. 
A giggle is always fun!! I love laughing!!!!

-XOXO-

Curiouscursor

Part two.... the final debris.

 

 

 

Part 2: His family is on vacation on a European cruise. That I was supposed to be on. They invited me at Christmas. Giving me the itinerary and a planning binder for the trip. Obviously, the invitation was retracted. Well, I figure this is the perfect opportunity to move the rest of my things out of his parents barn. I have been avoiding this task for um....since the break up. Knowing that I would have to see his Mom. I love his Mom and she loved me too. I've talked to his Mom on the phone a few times but each time it has ended with both of us crying....I wanted to avoid all that drama and re-injury to both of us. I knew that he grandma was watching the house so I called her to see if I could come get my things. She said 'Sure.' It turns out that his younger cousin was also there who just recently graduated from high school. She came out to help me put things in my car. Mid-cry of course. She cried explaining how sad she was too and then the rest of the debris were unleashed:  She said " (insert his mom's name here) and I are the only ones who stick up for you." I was taken back by this statement....she said "Well, ever since you put that tracking device on his cell phone and had one of your friends go and yell at him while he was on a date with someone....they think your crazy.... They were going to call you and talk to you about the tracking device." 

UH EXCUSE ME? Tracking device? Sending someone to yell at him while he was on a date? This is the first that I had heard about either of those things. None of my friends have ever mentioned seeing Seth on a date. I don't want to know if he is dating. She goes on to say "Grandma has made comments about how you weren't much of a house keeper." Haha. That statement made me laugh. Ask anyone who knows me, has lived with me, has met me that I prefer things tidy. Not spotless....but I make my bed every day. Do at least a load of laundry a day and keep things tidy.

What does my house cleaning have to do with anything? Bizarre.

 

Apparently his way of coping with how he has treated ME is to villainize me into being a dirty, awful, psycho ex-girlfriend.

Trying to some how justify that he was the 'good guy'. You and I both know the truth, Buddy. You have to live with your actions. All I did was love the wrong guy. You are a liar. You are fake. Karma is a bitch. I am working on not caring what others think about me. But I loved his family. And the thought that he is filling their mind with untrue things about me is so hurtful. It shows a lot about his character.

 

In my previous post I wrote about getting over someone. Deleting all contact with them. Apparently with this dude I have to take the extremes of no contact. I am getting a new phone number. I deleted and blocked anyone (including all his family and friends) who is associated with him on facebook, twitter and instagram.... That is extreme but I don't want to be associated with such a dysfunctional group of people.

 

 

 

Post-Break-Up Debris!!!!

How do we move forward?
Well me, personally,  I move forward from the break up having no contact....no contact with his friends no contact with his family, no longer being facebook friends, not following him on twitter, avoiding all places I knew that I could possibly run into him. I changed grocery stores, roads I took to work, changed pharmacies and changed my gym schedule. (Small town minimal options for gym membership) Bingo!!!  Changing all those things has got to make this easier..... WRONG!
I may have placed myself outside of his loops but there always has to be something that brings me back to his loop. Why? This is the super power I want:  The power of forgetting! If I could forget their would be no problems, no bumps in the road or post-relationship debris. This week has been a week of debris. A friend said "Hey! Do you still talk to your ex?  I saw _____________  and her husband at the bars with your ex-boyfriend hanging out. They were in the same group of people." Who is this couple you ask? Well, the husband is military and was deploying so I helped her find a place to live for the year...encouraging her to move in with a friend.... Made sure to always include her and invite her to things....so that she felt loved and supported in an unknown town while her husband is away..Went on weekend trips together....invited her to Christmas and Thanksgiving....etc.....(Genuinely loved being friends with her) ... .... Wrote graduate school recommendation letters.....and set her up with the best professional practicum available in our town. Welp. TRUE: Yes, she was hanging out with him because come on "What else was I to do when my husband still wants to be friends with him? I knew it would upset you? I knew it was wrong and has been bothering me. But I've moved on from the whole 'you two breaking up deal! I didn't want to hurt your feelings so I just didn't tell you (for 4 months!!!)"

Loyalty: is faithfulness or a devotion to a person, country, group, or cause. 

Let me just say to all of my friends/acquaintances/girls who were fucked-over by a guy.."Girl-Code".. I would Loyally NOT hang out with your ex boyfriend who humiliated you, lacked any sort of ability to treat you with dignity and kicked you out of your home because 'they didn't see you happily married in 10 years....' with zero notice.....
Never. I would never think this was okay or that we could maintain a healthy friendship. Sidenote: Her husband met him maybe 2 times prior to the break up. TWO TIMES!!!!! I was friends with his wife for 20 months prior to the break up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Some people don't have loyalty.

ALERT!!! ALERT!!!! THIS IS THE DEFINITION OF

POST-BREAKUP DEBRIS!!!

XOXO

-CuriousCursor-

 

Jab.

SEE MIDDLE RE-TWEET!!

ALERT ALERT!

 

That's me. Painting my dog's toenails!

 

 

I'm not ashamed....I love my dog! I want her to look pretty and lady like!!!!

And she even used to wear pink bows regularly!!!!! Because I liked it!

And I still love dogs with painted toe nails!

 It means they are loved and FABULOUS!

 

xoxo

-CuriousCursor- 

 

 

Citizenship?

What's wrong with this picture?? This is the neighbor that yelled 'its against the law to not have your dogs on a leash' (see earlier post)! What a loyal non-law-breaking citizen. Haha!!!

 

xoxo

-curiouscursor-

Perfect running weather & how my dogs handle it.

This summer I am going to start running with a group of people who run in the mornings. Today was going to be my first day to join them. I got a message that they were not running due to wind and it might rain. Okay. I'll start tomorrow. I realized it was just misty cool weather and took my dogs out for a jog which ended up being 6.4 miles. PERFECT RUNNING WEATHER!!!!!!!!!


Memo about the dogs:  Ellie is an over weight 7 year old golden retriever and on a diet and needs to exercise... Sky could probably run forever. She has unlimited energy. Ellie loves walks and loves jogs but if she gets tired during the run, rather than slowing down.........she stops and plops wherever we are. For instance: In the mud. In a nasty puddle and today....In the middle of the street, crossing Seth Child Road.....Which is a 45 mph street and is very busy. So I pull her and sky is pulling her (I use one leash and have them hooked side-by-side) and Ellie still lays there..... People Honking giggling as they watch me try to maneuver my 80lbs golden retriever to the other side of the street. And then her collar slips off. And yes, she continues to sit there being as stubborn as always.... Once she plops 1 time its a never ending battle until we get home. She walks 10-20 steps lays down. over-and-over.

  Perfect example. 

Puzzles: My new obsession. Literally Hours and Hours of Entertainment.

xoxo

-curiouscursor-

The real housewife of Manhattan, Kansas.

 

The Real Housewife of Manhattan, KS.

http://www.ci.manhattan.ks.us/DocumentCenter/Home/View/3048

                                          Sky                   Zuri                        Ellie

The first Saturday of summer. It started off with a 5k race with a colleague. Ran it in about 32:00 minutes which is pretty typical for me. 10 minute miles...

I came home realized the garbage cans are still on the curb from yesterday. Ghetto. I know....So I bring them in. This is about a  15 second procedure; from the curb to the garage. My dogs are outside with me. Super obedient...they love me and don't leave my side and don't even pay attention to others...Ellie is a 7 year old golden retriever and Sky is a therapy dog. Uh Hello. Pretty much perfect Pets!!!! (well, almost)
I realize that I am already sweaty I should probably Mow.  I get the law mower out. And then it happens.....I get the pleasure of meeting Vicki Gunderson (look-a-like)....She is about 65 wearing a black mini skirt and heals. Blonde. Big fake teeth....
Vicki Gunderson: You need to get those dogs on a leash. Its the law. All dogs need to be on the leash. Its unlawful to let your dogs run free.  There are children in this area. I'm the landlord of your neighbors next door.
Me: Excuse me? Were they bothering you? Did they come up to you? (No, they didn't they walked outside and ran around the garage and stayed right next to me while I pulled in the garbage cans and got the lawn mower).
Vicki: Its the law.
Me: (eye roll) Thank you??
Vicki: I'm trying to be neighborly!
(Keep in mind. My dogs and I had been outside for 15-20 seconds before she rudely approached us).

Somebody lied to Vicki. Whatever...."I wouldn't want to be un- neighborly." I leash up the pups.....and mow. Vicki then walks across the street to the house diagonally from me... okay? weird. I continue to mow. She walks back by.
Me: Well that wasn't a very neighborly introduction. I'm Jesi. Nice to meet you. Sorry about my dogs. So your the landlord of these two houses?
Vicki: Yes, I'll be living in the one across the street and my son and his family are moving next door. I'm _____________ (I'll continue to just call her Vicki Gunderson from the real housewives).
I am just not a pet person. They always like me and I don't like pets. (small talk continues)

Welcome to the neighborhood, Vicki!! We. Are. Surrounded.
I've attached the link to the dog ordinance in Manhattan, KS. 
My dogs can be off the leash in my yard. Just not running around the city out of control.... Maybe I'll copy this off and put it in her mailbox.

xoxo

-curiouscursor-

HOMELSS?!?!?!

Welp. I DON'T HAVE AN ADDRESS? WHAT AM GOING TO DO? DO I HAVE TO MOVE IN WITH MY MOM AGAIN??? ffffffffuuuuuuucccccccccckkkkkkkk!

Then I was saved by one of my closest friends. Took me in. Let me cry, drank wayyy tooo much wine and heal at her house in their spare bedroom. And then. About a month or 2 later. They broke up. (Caution Caution!!!!!!!!) My Friend, being the wonderful, dedicated, loving girlfriend to her, now, ex. sees the tornado I am currently still grieving from.... and says "You can stay until I get home from being abroad in July. Its April. April 9th. 3 more months of the ex boyfriend in their house for 3 months. I see her kindness and loving heart..... so now. Its the first day of summer. My friend is in Africa and its just me, her ex-boyfriend, oh and did I mention his 50% of the time 6 year old living together for 6 more weeks. Yeah. Just the 3 of us and our 3 dogs. 
Awkward moment number one: I'm a social worker. Which in turn means I am an over talker. I over talk about an issue desperately needing to be overly reassured that things are okay after an argument/differing of opinion/moody day etc.... And my friend has the opposite way of how she talks about the issue. . She doesn't say anything to him. They go about their 'normal' lives. Not sleeping in the same bed. Barely talking. With 3 gigantic elephants in the room. Always.....I get nervous. Sweat. drink more wine because the obvious tension needs to STOP!!!  But nope. They talked 1 night when it was confirmed, yet again, that her boyfriend was never going to get married again. Never going to have another child. (this is the second time he has used this excuse).
She's a beautiful 24 year old with a masters degree and 3 years of experience in her profession, a good family a fun dog.....she's a catch and she finally grew her strength. She 'kicked him to the curb'.(MEMO: 3 month grace period of having him still live in HER house.) See, she's nice.
AND now she goes abroad. (Not that it wasn't dysfunctional prior to her departure.) Now.  I'm living with her ex-boyfriend who never made her a priority, was shady, sometimes didn't come home from the bars and wants to be single forever. What? Yep. our address: 841 Awkward drive. 

xoxo

-curiouscursor-

 





HITS of the 20s & 30s.

HITS of my 20s and 30s.
 

Hits of the 20s and 30s. The HITS of breaking up .....and wondering why I have maybe, 2 single friends? Maybe? Why does everyone have the life I want and I don't!!!!!! There, tantrum over. But seriously. I look great on paper I have 2 degrees and my masters. I have a job that I love. great family!, I love socializing, I drink wine, go to church, dress cute, I'm sweet, I've travelled and man, I am fun!! What else do I have to do to find a great man. I thought I had ,the great, man and was blindsided one night to find out "He is really happy now but doesn't see 'us' happy in 10 years!' What! Life changing. I had said from day one. I am going to marry this guy!!! We moved in together quick and life continued to blossomed. He told me he wanted to marry me. We were building a house together. We met with the architect, we had our land surveyed talked about our wedding...we were in it. Real. Love. Then he got drunk broke up with me in front of friends and told me I had to move out ASAP.
me: Tomorrow?
him: Yep Tomorrow
me.: Can't I just stay in the bedroom in the basement? Where am I supposed to go?
him: Maybe I can help you look into staying in a hotel room for a week or so.
me: no words. I felt  Shocked. hurt. abandoned. sad???
and then his friends sat on the couch and watched me move out in the morning.....making small talk and not leaving....just watching. Sitting on the couch with a smirk on their faces.

xoxo

-curiouscursor-